Wednesday, May 6, 2009


I am feeling a bit dejected today. Most you know that I am prone to drama and feel quite deeply so when I hear that our current administration has canceled the national day of prayer events, Maine has accepted gay marriage and that a childhood friend of mine that is married with kids is now a homosexual....I hurt. This blog is becoming more like therapy than anything else.

I am so saddened by the state of affairs in our country right now. I know God is on his throne. I know that we are still on His timetable. It reminds me of when we read through "The Last Battle" which is the final installment of the Chronicles of Narnia series. There is such hopelessness as Shift (the ape) has convinced Puzzle (the donkey) to wear a lion's skin and pretend to be Aslan. Shift then begins to destroy and waste the land and inhabitants of Narnia. And the people blindly go with the destruction not knowing of the impostor but not choosing to do that which is right. I was screaming at the book, "Why? Why are you so blind? Stop this nonsense. He is obviously not Aslan." I was so sick by the tragedies that befell the Narnian creatures that I didn't think I could get through the book. But then, hope flickers as Scrub and Poll arrive and free King Rillian. Then the enemy of Aslan, Tash, arrives and the stage is set for the last battle for Narnia....

Now I am not saying we are in the last battle but I feel like we are at the beginning stages of much tragedy as our society becomes more and more anti-family, anti-God, anti-freedom of speech, anti-common sense and basically have lost logical reasoning. I am just trying to keep my focus on my role during this time and the end of the story where Jesus is triumphant and we are taken to be with Him forever.

The best movies and books are the ones that take you through great tragedy and into great victory...such is the story of our world. But during this time of setting the stage, I have been most disheartened today.


  1. We were just talking about some of that today at our girly Bible study. Sometimes it all makes me want to become Amish and hide out in the prairie somewhere. But that wouldn't exactly be biblical, so it probably isn't going to happen. I feel ya.

  2. Ah, my sweet friend... you are dejected because you feel so deeply, and you care so deeply. And so, I will mourn these things with you today, but I will watch in hope to see how God uses YOU... you are a fighter, you are passionate, you are not faint-hearted (like someone else we know) =).

  3. Interestingly enough, the dear friend in question IM me and we had a long discussion about the changes in his life and our beliefs regarding the definition of marriage. At the end of the day I think we both agreed to disagree but for whatever it is worth, at least we were able to have a logical, calm discussion about his coming out of the closet. I am still saddened by it all in that I don't understand how one marries their beliefs in Jesus Christ with homosexuality but at least I was able to be a little proactive about it.